Frustration
I rarely do any form of real blogging, but need to get something off my chest and figure this is as good a place to do it as any... After Liam's moment of glory walking in the video below, his solo steps have been few and far between. In fact, I'd say he did more independent walking on that single day than he has in the two weeks since. Despite the predictions and optimism of other well-meaning parents, I knew somewhere in my head that Liam wasn't going to just take off and start walking on his own now that he's proven he can do it; getting him to crawl and pull up to a standing position only happened with months of physical therapy. I suspect this latest milestone won't be reached without a fight either, and it's really getting to me. We've had plenty of bumps and scares along the baby road - couldn't hear the heartbeat at the "normal" time, genetic testing came back with elevated risk in several areas, ultrasound only confirmed the concerns (which were negated by an amnio to our immense relief!), Liam was a miserable, colicky baby who rarely slept and cried for hours at a time the first couple of months, he suffered an almost-constant stream of ear infections and bronchial problems while we were in Oregon, needed PT for gross motor skills due to general lack of movement, landed in the hospital with RSV at 11 months, and has needed breathing treatments everytime he catches a cold since. And now this. Still not walking at almost a year and a half - I must hear that from someone at least 3 times a week (said in an incredulous tone as if it's the worst thing ever), and it sucks. I feel like we've dealt with our share of issues and it's someone else's turn. We're immensely lucky to have Liam (wouldn't trade him for any other guy in the world!!) and I know that many people have MUCH more serious concerns and struggles with their little ones, but I just want a break from worrying about his health and development. Based on past experience, I know Liam will walk by himself eventually and things will be fine in the end, but I'm frustrated and probably caught up in more than a bit of self pity, too. I just want our guy to breeze through life for awhile and not always be the kid who is "behind" and struggling. And I want to be the parent who can share her baby's age without getting stares and questions. -Amelia
Monday, August 18, 2008
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8 comments:
Thank you for letting us share in your struggle. Going through trials is NEVER fun as Nate and I have had our shares. We will continue to pray for you all and trust that everything will turn out just fine! If you need someone to talk to, I'm always here.
Love, Natalie
Tell ya what, I'll trade you one week of my nausea for one week of your frustrations? Deal?
Hang in there and if you need a tall glass of wine to pass the hours, you know who to call...
kg
Amelia,I spent 3 days Liam and I don't know how I could be any prouder of a grandson! I also am very proud of my grandson's very concerned parents! Liam is very very Lucky! Grandpa K
I feel your frustration, I had my share with the boys as they were growing up and I shed many of tears at times. I wouldn' trade them for anything or my grandson, Liam. Hang in there;easier said then done. It does help to vent at times, thanks and I hope it helps a little. kk
Amelia, my heart is breaking for you. Hopefully, all of this junk is happening now, so that Liam can sail through life later on. Like he's getting it all out of the way. Knowing that he has such wonderful, concerned parents makes me confident that Liam will succeed in whatever he's "working" on. I wish we were there to help cheer him on and help cheer you up. Please keep us informed!
All the best, Sarah
Ahh the joys of parenting. If I remember correctly (remember = I'm constantly told) I had bronchial issues, I had problems with my legs, and was constantly in and out of the hospital. And I turned out OK, right? RIGHT?
I'm sorry little Liam is causing big stress. But it makes me feel more relaxed about the situation to see that you are stressing over the situation. You guys have gone to every length to ensure that he has the best you can provide. All the care you are taking to ensure these various problems are overcome will see this whole walking thing overcome also.
Kelli and I have been lucky (knock on wood) that Kaldun has been healthy and a relative ease to handle. I don't think I would have handled your child-related stress level as well as you [seem to]. I wish there was something I could do or say to help. If there is, let me know.
- Jesse
Whoever said that they love parenting all of the time is a liar and a half. It hurts and it is frustrating. You can only hope that the good times outweigh the bad times and luckily they do. Liam WILL reach a stage where you wish he wasn't so mobile. No one goes to Kindergarten crawling.
If it helps to know I am hurting for you, then here goes. I wish you could give me some of your frustrations to lighten your load right now. I would gladly take it off your back. No one is perfect and nothing is perfect in life, but there is so much to be happy about. We just have to look for the good and treasure that. Liam is smart, maybe too smart! He is surrounded by love and so are you!
Mom/Sue/Grandma Sue
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